Where was Jim Carrey enlightened

Interview: Interview with star comedian Jim Carrey: "I love my isolation"

For years there has hardly been anything left to see from you in the cinema. Only now are you coming out with a big movie again with "Sonic The Hedgehog". Why the break?

Jim Carrey: I got to the point everyone dreamed of and realized: I'm still unhappy. That was a shock. When you've achieved everything, what else is there? Everything was driven by the desire to create something and to be loved and admired for it. And I realized: that's not the point at all. I don't need someone to stroke my stomach and tell me how great I am.

You once said in an interview that you don't even exist.

Carrey: That's right. I know it sounds crazy, but I've had a number of revival experiences. I've always lost myself in my roles, I've lived in them. And when I was done with it, it always took me a month to remind myself: who am I actually? What do I like and what do I dislike? - And then when I turned back into Jim Carrey, I was depressed. But then I realized, wait a minute, if I can put this Jim Carrey aside for a few months to become someone else, who the hell is this person? Do they even exist? It was like an enlightenment. I am just a bundle of energies that have been planted with certain ideas.

What ideas?

Carrey: That I am of Irish-Scottish-French origin. That I'm from Canada. That I'm an actor who inherited his talent from his father, the funniest man in the world. I'm like a patched up Frankenstein monster. Or more precisely: an avatar. Since I figured that out, I've been much happier.

However, you had serious problems to deal with. A few years ago, your ex-girlfriend's parents blamed you for their daughter's suicide.

Carrey: Sure, this reality was still bothering me. I don't even want to deny that I've been through really tough times in recent years. Things I wouldn't want anyone to do. When something bad happens to me, I deal with it just as much as anyone else. But the sadness that I feel passes by like a bad weather front. I won't let her get me down. Because I know that all this suffering only promotes the process of knowledge. You try to understand where this pain comes from, why these people are inflicting it on you, you develop compassion for these people and suddenly you feel completely free.

 

You are now also active as a painter. Does that help with liberation?

Carrey: Absolutely. There is a part of me that wants to present itself to people. I have to be creative. So I can process what happens to me. For example when someone breaks my heart. That has happened to me often enough. But acting isn't ideal for that. All of this has to get out of me immediately. I can't wait for a committee to give the go-ahead or for a script to be perfect. I have an idea and then I paint it or I make a sculpture, I don't know what that means. But after a while I get it, and it's a fantastic feeling. Should I show you one of my pictures?

Yeah yeah

Carrey: (He lets his assistant bring his smartphone to him, scrolls to a picture with expressive colors in which some shapes emerge.) These are all characters that embody me: this one shows a person who only focuses on business, then she experienced a trauma that cut her in two. This man is trapped in his trauma. But then there is another bandaged character who is willing to look beyond his injuries, and this is how she sees a ballerina. It embodies death, the death of the self. And at the same time it stands for grace that is always within our grasp. At first I had no idea why I painted this - it took me five days - but now I know.

Under what circumstances do you decide to take on a role?

Carrey: I'm not looking for roles, they'll find me. You have to be right for me in the moment. For example, I made an appearance in the movie "The Bad Batch". The director wanted to cast me in the role of a violent cult leader, which then went to Keanu Reeves. But I said I don't feel like diving into such squalor. I don't live in such a world. I love my isolation, go my own way. And she said: "Sure, your role is that of the hermit." And I said, "Yes, of course. I am." I didn't care that it was a small role. As far as I'm concerned, they didn't even have to name me in the credits.

Supposedly you carried your hermit existence so far that you lived in the house with lots of birds.

Carrey: That's right. I tried to drive them away for a while because they gave me mites. But then they came back again. Now they follow me all over the house.

And what about the mites?

Carrey: They're not that bad. I can get along with them now.

But you don't like the human audience anymore?

Carrey: Yes, yes. But I don't need the encouragement of normal viewers anymore. It's nice to hear compliments, but they mean nothing to me.

Hasn't your success as an actor brought you something concrete after all?

Carrey: He has. Right at the beginning. I can't really remember it myself, but my mother kept telling me that. Because I didn't want to eat as a toddler. But they put me in my high chair and put the plate in front of me. So I started shaking myself and making all kinds of faces that made the rest of the family laugh. My mother protested: "Don't encourage him, he just wants to avoid eating." But as a result, everyone really started snorting. My meal went cold and I had achieved my goal. That's how my whole career began. If you can even speak of a career. It's all just flowing energy.

And what if you are all over? Does death exist for you?

Carrey: I believe in some form of death. You suddenly realize that you never existed. This is not an event, but a sudden realization: it has always been like this.